Hmm...

OK so I have a few saved drafts that I haven't posted so I am just making up a quick one because I wanted to keep with the post a day thing. Please note the correction from my last post. Emily is not just a girl. She is the woman!

Today's post is going to be short and sweet. Life has been hard for me to figure out lately. Really hard. I am constantly busy and I often times wonder where I am going or what I am doing. I can't see myself in a few years much less a year from now, six months from now, or six weeks from now. I could go more into depth but I really don't care to give you those details of my life. If you wish to know, please ask me in person. Yesterday I went over to my friend's house who just got back from a 6 week trip to Guatemala. I was looking at his pictures and was just so.... envious. Envious that he was able to just get up and leave for six weeks ( I can't even leave for two days because I don't have the vacation time), envious that he got to see such beautiful parts of the world, envious that he was able to make friends with locals and take their pictures ( I am too shy to just try and take a random person's picture) and the list could go on. When at lunch with my friend Dave about two weeks ago he was telling me that I could do anything with my life, I am just afraid to. He is completely right. I don't know what I would do without my routine. What would I do without a real job and a 401k and health insurance and the safety net of life? There are times I feel like I am not going anywhere or doing anything and I just want to get up and leave. I want to travel, I want to grab life by the horns! (Thanks Dodge!) But... I don't. I am afraid to. What would the consequences be? Ugh... I am so frustrated and I don't know what to do.