Thursday, July 30, 2009

It Might Be A While

Well, I just wanted to write a blog because it might be a while. I am packing up all my stuff right now. Tomorrow is moving day, and I won't have the internet for a while. I need to figure something out...but I am NOT paying $60/mo for the internet by myself. I will still have access to email from my phone so that will just have to do for now I suppose. 

Also, if you believe in a higher power please keep me in your prayers tonight. I am having RADIOACTIVE fluid injected into my body tomorrow. Then I have to stay completely still so that they can get accurate pictures for the next hour or two. I am not going to lie... I am a little freaked out. I know everything will be OK though.  I just am praying that they find out WHY I am in so much pain. 

Anyway... back to packing. If you don't hear from me for a while, then that's why.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Today's Schedule

4:15am Awake in great pain, and feeling sick to my stomach. Walk to the bathroom because I feel my stomach/throat/mouth may need to use the toilet. I walk 2 ft, knees buckle, and I pass out.

4:17 am. pee.

4:20 sit up/sleep in bed

4:25 get a strong conviction to go to the Dr./ER because I have appendicitis. My stomach has been hurting for the past 2 days but not this bad. That thought is the only thing that convinced me to go to the Dr. I mean who wants to sit in an ER? 

4:30 find phone and call dr's office to find out they don't open until 8:30am. Make plans to be there promptly at 8am.

4:30-6:30. Wait to call people because I don't want to wake them up. 

6:30am call mother. no answer. 

6:45am call Sister who had appendicitis, no answer

7am call mother again. no answer. call house phone. no answer. call house phone AGAIN. no answer.

7:10am call Jade. SURPRISE! NO ANSWER! 

7:11am wonder if I live in a twilight zone and if everyone is dead rendering them unable to answer their phones. 

7:12-7:45 pretend to be interested about whatever is on TV while I am in unbearable pain.

7:45 decide it is early enough to head to dr's

8am go to dr's office, pee in a cup, be tested for h-pylori, and wait a lot. am given STAT orders to go get bloodwork done and have two types of CT scans done.

10am head to get the CT scans done.  Am told that I have free floating fluid on the right side of my body which is probably causing the pain. Two different types of ultrasounds are ordered.

11:20 head across the street to st. marks only to find out that they don't accept united health care.

11:40 am. head to imc hospital, who DOES accept united.

11:50 get a call from dr. saying that imc's ultrasound machine is broken and i have to still get my bloodwork done but i will have to go somewhere else for a ct scan.

11:55 arrive at the wrong building and am redirected to the right building

12:05 arrive at lab. someone else checks me in because of my incredible pain, i spaze out in seizures while being checked in but assure the lady im fine. (it feels like someone stabbed me 12 times in the stomach when i freaked out)

12:20 have bloodwork drawn. nurse refuses to let me walk out and wheels me out and has someone else wheel me out to my car.

12:45 arrive as TOSH to have the ultrasound done.

1pm meet sonographer

1pm-3:00pm have three different ultrasounds done. I will spare you the details... the good news... im not pregnant. well gee... I coulda told you that. The bad news? Confirmed that I have lots of fluid in my stomach but we still don't know why. 


Sunday, July 19, 2009

sacrificial lamb?

do you ever feel your trials are supposed to be blessings to other people?  you know... like bad things happen to you so that good things can happen to other people?

it sure has felt like that the past....5 years or so. don't get me wrong. my life doesn't suck by  ANY means or stretch of the imagination.... 

i just feel like i am here to help other people....

when is someone going to be here to help me?

Sunday, July 12, 2009

So, remember that one time

when I blogged about this deliciously handsome young man that kept appearing in my dreams but had never seen or met!?!?! Well... the deliciously handsome young man keeps appearing at my doorstep. Out of this world! But... I like it.