I Need My Sleep

Anyone who has known me for any length of time knows never to wake me up from sleeping especially if it is for something retarded. I am mean when I wake up and even meaner if I feel it isn't justified. As a child my parents would wake me up at one or two in the morning to do dishes. This made me boil inside! The dishes could clearly wait to be done till the morning and I was sleeping. The only thing ever accomplished was that it added more mutterings under my breath at them. I can honestly say I have never once learned a lesson from being woken up.

If the house is on fire by all means wake me up. If you are dying please, throw a brick at my head and tell me to call 911 (or not because that might conflict with my dialing 911 and we might die together) but for no reason short of that should I ever be woken up. (well, maybe if there is a really cool party and I am missing it) But yes, do you catch my tokoyo drift here? I mean if it is a few minutes early that is fine, but hours early? No. I am mean. Downright mean. It is the worst trait I have and I hate it. I really wish I could find a way to change that habit. Now, I am not talking about after 8 hours of sleep I am mean. Quite the contrary, I am quite happy and probably too happy for 6am.

Coinsiding with this is the way energy drinks affects this.

I hate the way I act when I have had too many energy drinks and not enough sleep. The caffine and crap in the energy drinks really intensifies all of my emotions. I imagine it has the same effect on me that alcohol has on most people. I tend to cry, blow up, or have some sort of reaction without fail every single time. And every single time I feel so incredibly guilty afterwards for being mean and overreacting. Like killing a puppy in front of a child might evoke less feelings of guilt than when I blow up without reason and say things I should not say. I wish I could be mean and feel GOOD about it. Actually, no I don't, but at least I wouldn't feel so crummy.

Needless to say it is 10 am and I have had one hour of sleep and I feel like scum right now.