All I could think of are the words of Herman Melville from Moby Dick..." when I felt grim about the mouth ...and wanting to knock people's hats off... I take to the sea." Well dear friends, I had no canoe, no raft, no boat and could not take to the sea. I had no idea where I would go if I just got in my car and went....
I felt like I was trapped and needed to escape or scream. The end result was making a playlist of angry and high energy music. Loud beats, mean words, and music that would flow through my veins complete with Taylor Swift (picture to burn), Jay- Z/ Linkin Park (collision course) and much more...
First on the playlist was Gifted with Kayne West and Lykke Li.
I had my newly made playlist in hand and because Salt Lake City has advisory warnings for breathing the air I took to the treadmill at the gym... with music playing so loud I'll regret it one day when I am deaf... I ran the fastest, hardest 4 miles I've run since shortly after I graduated high school and stopped running track. I normally have pain in my knee or my shin and I can't go for very long. Not today. Today I ran four straight miles like it would set me free; it did. Somewhere between mile 1.5 and mile 2 I felt a release of anger, a release of negative toxins that had circulated through my body all day, a release from nearly 6 months of an unhealthy relationship, and a release from any feelings that might have been there and felt happier than I have in a long time. I kept running.... and right at mile 4 I knew that I had friends waiting for me at my house and I headed back home. What a shame....
The night was followed by frozen yogurt, hot tubs, jumping fences and climbing trees in bikinis, and 500 days of Summer.
One of the best days in my history if you ask me.
What do YOU do to cure a bad day?
Sweetness. It's all true, it totally works.
ReplyDeleteAh yes, my friend after my own kind, RUNNING! And talking to people who care helps me.